This Video Cost Me My "Dream" Job

After 10 years in the corporate world, I learned three things.

#1: Life is a dream. And when we die, we wake up.

For the longest time, I thought I was living the dream.

Launching unreal worlds with an epic team.

But at some point, I realized: this dream wasn’t mine.

I was just living someone else’s grand design.

The longer I stayed, the smaller I felt.

I was bored. Dreamless. And quietly shelved.

And so I walked away.

Not from who I was, but who I wasn’t. I wasn’t the type to circle back, touch base, and ping you again.

I was someone who had actual stories to tell. Out loud. Without legal approval.

And so I turned to YouTube. Quietly, privately.

Covering stories about the gaming world you won’t see in a press release.

To my surprise, I even found an audience.

But that’s when the dream already ended. Not with applause, but with an email...the kind you don’t circle back.

#2: Every choice is a tradeoff.

I always wandered — in thought, in work, in wonder.

As a kid, I was restless. Always asking “why?”

As a corporate adult, I was muted. Always told to comply.

So my channel sounded like noise to people who’ve learned to keep things quiet.

And in the name of quiet, I was told to stop.

It wasn’t personal. It was policy.

Creative freedom blocked by a clause in the contract.

So I kept things quiet.

My brain however, didn’t.

One side said: “Play it safe.”

The other: “Play”

But “Play” meant trading off creative freedom for comfort.

Which brings me to Lesson #3: Fear is the fine print of being free.

Because the scariest part is - this. This channel.

It’s exciting, but also terrifying.

There’s no roadmap. No paycheck. Just a little experiment.. with my face on it.

But I have to know: What happens when I follow the thing that scares me the most?

So here it is:

The Informed Gamer.

Back from the dead. After 9 months of silence.

I almost believed it didn’t matter.

But it does.

So from now on, no more “circling back.”

Just stories behind the games we play.

From Snoop Dogg to beauty giants, weapon deals and developer disasters.

You’ll get to see the game behind the game.

So thanks for being here, for watching…

for waiting, for caring.

And for making this all a little less scary.

Because truth be told: Most fear isn’t real.

It’s just your brain hitting the brakes right before the good part kicks in.

So yeah, let’s do this. And if it flops, I’ll circle back, touch base and ping you again.